Making sense… (somehow)

Ever wonder why people in our lives come and go? I read from a forwarded email that people come into our lives for a reason and for a season.

When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed. They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually. They may seem like a godsend and they are. They are there for the reason you need them to be. Then, without any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end. Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away. Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand. What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled, their work is done. The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on.

Some people come into your life for a SEASON, because your turn has come to share, grow or learn. They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh. They may teach you something you have never done. They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy. Believe it, it is real. But only for a season!

An unsent letter for someone who walked away

Dear you,
I really don’t get it why you said your goodbye. I thought we were really good friends. I know I’ve hurt you in some way but I think I was hurt more knowing I couldn’t do anything. That what happened was beyond my control. I was optimistic that as a friend you will understand. On the other hand, you didn’t. You walked away from the friendship that we’ve put together for years. Now, it puzzles me, was it really my fault or its just you who gave up too soon?

Before I always hope that eventually we’ll fix things out and forgive each other. But though I think I’ve done everything to get you back, I still failed. It really hurts knowing I couldn’t do anything to make you stay.

It’s been quite a while since I’ve started hoping we’ll pick up the pieces and start all over again. But I don’t think I can still hold on. I realized it’s time to let you go and stop fighting for a friendship that will never return. Maybe, you’ve done your part and I’ve done mine. And that’s all! It’s time to let go…

Thank you for the friendship you shared with me. I will be always praying for you. Goodbye B!

Friends, Thoughts, Writtings

Hey Janis… Remember what I wrote as a dedication at the back of the picture I gave you. If I remember it right, I don’t think I wrote the famous dedication line, “UGLY TO SEE BUT FULL OF MEMORY!” Instead I wrote something like this…

T h a n k Y o u O n c e A g a i n

We hardly share a glace when we have known each other
And now the time is up and you are packing up
We’ll find another chance to meet again together
And fill each other’s cup though we feel like breaking up
It’s the time that almost makes me cry
Before we say goodbye, I want to let you know I love you

Thank you for playing our music
Thank you for singing a song
Thank you for sparing a moment
For with you I felt I really belonged
Thank you for keeping me company
Thank you for being a friend
And if our path should cross, someday, somewhere
We’d like to sing this song againAnd may the Lord our God, bless you and keep you

Together let us call this warm and cozy hall
But there’s one thing more before the day is done,
Before the lights are gone, before the curtain closes, let me say…

Thank you for playing our music
Thank you for singing a song
Thank you for sparing a moment
For with you I felt I really belonged
Thank you for keeping me company
Thank you for being a friend
And if our path should cross, someday, somewhere
We’d like to sing this song again…

-music ministry-
January, 1995

It’s a farewell song taught by my music teacher when I was in grade school. Knowing you’ll be coming home soon, I am really excited and at the same time nervous. I know many things have changed already but I’m holding on to the thought that our friendship remained the same. It’s been what, four/five years since Joy’s dramatic moments. Remember the shoe lace and the tali ng kulambo?! Jing and I still have a good laugh every time we remember those times. What I really want to say is that I am very grateful for your coming home. I missed you so much. I think I’m going to sing you this song when you get back! Can’t wait to see you… Super!

Friends, Music, Thoughts

Early this morning, after making butingting some of my old stuff, including an old make up kit, I received a text message from an old friend, inviting me, together with some other friends for a get together- like a reunion because we’ve seen each other since last year.

I wondered if that make up kit still makes miracles…

So, I wore my best dress, put some blushed on for a rosy cheek, and a little bit of red lipstick to add colour to my pale lips. I also added some eye shadow and mascara to enhance my eye lashes. I will later sashay at the get together like a dazzling diva!

The get-together was fun. I was a little bit tipsy when I went home. Then, as I sat in front of the mirror, it struck me! Ekkk! Frankenstein is a girl and she is on my mirror!!!!! I actually have two black moon-shape under my two eyes. That local-made-slash-cheap-slash-ancient mascara failed me! Waaahhhhh!

The fact that nobody tried to tell me about my Frankenstein look, I guess they didn’t know how to drop the bomb or probably they were too drunk to notice? Hahaha!

Oh, well…

Friends, Thoughts